[babyjameshood]

Hey everyone, I'm new here. I've been coming to this site for 2 wks now, finally joined this weekend.

I have 2 children, boys, ages 3 years old and 2 months old. I've been struggling with my weight since the birth of my first child. I went from 107 lbs to 190 2 wks before I delivered. From a pre-pregnancy size 2 - 4,
I was stuck in size 16 stretch for 3 years. Finally in April I had enough, and started working out crazily, and unfortunately I stopped eating and would only eat sunflower seeds and water. Horrible, I know, but it worked, and I couldn't stop as I kept watching the numbers go down and my pants literally fall off with every step. I was desesperate! By July I was 135 lbs. In Sept I was 130 because my bf found out what I was doing and freaked out, literally forcing me to eat. So I had started eating again and taking care of myself.

In October I found out I was pregnant again. This time, I watched what I ate, and I still gained a lot. I was at 175 lbs. I left the hospital at 166 lbs. Since then, I've been trying to lose weight, I'm not taking any supplements as I'm breastfeeding. But I'm very concious with what I eat. I screwed up yesterday, my bf brought pizza because of it was my birthday and I refused to go out.

I'm so desesperate, but I want to do it right, not only because I'm breastfeeding, but because I need the energy to keep up with my kids and I don't want to kill myself in the process. I'm depressed, and I'm driving everyone around me nuts, all I talk about is weight loss, and I weigh myself about 10 times a day. I'm obssesed, and completely freaking out. I'm stuck here, at 149 lbs, and I don't know what to do, I go for jogs, and for walks daily, and I do strength training. I follow videos, Billy Blanks 8 minute video I do 4 times in a row.

My Goal / Challenge is to lose lbs (39) by December, I figure it's plenty of time for it. But I'm doing a total body makeover, my weights gotta go down, and my self esteems gotta go up.

Thank You!

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