[Piratewench]

Over the past 7 years ive lost a total of 100lbs, and intruth i did nothing other than eating better and getting ahold of both my bipolar disorder and getting help with my severe social anxiety disroder...

now i KNOW 100lbs is ALOT of weight, especially for a 22 yr old...
but folks i have a problem.

ive been stuck at this 260lb plateau for a year now and im frustrated and depressed. ive lowered my caloric intake to 1000-1200 daily as advised by unfortunatly a very unhelpfull dr, those calories are split into 5-6 meals a day as im hypoglycemic so need to eat little and often.
Ive upped my excersize from a simple 1/2 hour walk every toher day to
walking 1/2 hour EVERY day!
yoga 1/2 hour EVERY day!
Pilates 1 hour twice a week
Eliptical 1 hour 4 times a week

ive tried a sudden increase in calos then a quick drop back down in hopes of a quick start, no luck. ive tried more excersize, other than make me very tired it did nothign...

I just cant get past this point. ive tries weightwatchers and atkins and theres just too much formality involved.

Im a very picky eater and while i have a chocolate loving part of myself i have it under control with 1 serviving of some form of indulgence once a week...(and by that i mean like 1 chocolate chip cookie or something)

I perfer chicken, no skin, preferably grilled. though il admit my soft spot for pasta, the majority of my meals are chicken salad with low fat dressing, or a small sandwhich...
I eat red meat once a week to keep my iron levels in check.

I cant have fish because im allergic, but i usually just stick with lean chicken anywho.

i just dont get it. its frustrating and depressing and i feel like im going to slip away...

unfortunatly my past dr was NOT helpfull, his exact words to me were "peopel are fat because there lazy" and thats all the info he would offer me other than "eat less" (im not sure a 22 yr old female should eat less than 1000 cals for saftey reasons correct?)

then i lost my job, along with it my health insurance, so right now its not even like i can find a new dr to talk to about this...
I feel isolated, alone and lost. i feel ugly and unlovable (despite the wonderfully great efforts of my boyfrined and friends to make me see im not the person i put myself down to be...
unfortunatly though, none of them have my problem and i feel they just cant understand.

Id like to get to 160lbs at this point, i feel if i can get there i can be healthy and happy, once i reach that poitn i can reevaluate and mabe push for that last 20 to take me to where my dr feels i should be (though i feel 140 on my frame would make me look sick)

ive looked into trimspa, exenadrine ect, all of them seem to be more apitite suppresants than anything else,
and while i can honestly say i tend to snack when im bored...i realy dont overeat...

i was looking into alli, but the possible side effects worry me as i have a very sensitive stomach.
ive been told phen would be a good choice but without health insurance, a dr or a job, i just cant afford it...

if anyone could offer some words of help...id apreciate it.
im hoping being here will help keep my spirits up so i can keep fighting the good fight

[losingtowin]

I want you to think to yourself how far you have come! Please don't look to how much you need to go, but what you have accomplished! Look at what you have in life! It sounds like you have a very supportive boyfriend who loves you for who you are, not how much you weigh. You have friends who love you! That is a lot more than a lot of people can say. But please, do you love yourself? I don't mean, do you love your body, but do you love yourself? That is the most important thing. Looks and weight change every day, but you need to be secure with who you are and love you for YOU! I know getting stuck is so very frustrating. I can't see how it is possible you are stuck where you are with what you are doing. I wish you were able to see a different doctor. That last one was a quack and should be sued! Fat people are not that way because they are lazy! Ok, some are, but you obviously don't fit that category. I have a friend who was very thin, and played hours of softball a day. Then in college, when she was still playing on the team, and riding her bike miles a day to and from college, she suddenly gained a ton of weight! The doctors said there was nothing wrong with her! HA! Finally they found out there was something and she has to take a medication or else she is physically unable to lose weight. She was not lazy!
I hope you find some relief soon from your plateau. Sounds like you are doing everything right. Hopefully you can get health insurance back soon and see a new doctor. If they don't help, then see a different one! Write down everything you do and eat, then when you are able to see a doctor again they can have a very clear picture of what you are doing. That may save some time from them saying "diet and excersise" You can say"I Do! SEE?"

Check in here often and we will help you through this. I hope you know you are not alone here, and you can find people here who really care.