[TripleA]

Hi-
I'm new to this because I really need some support from non-friends/family. I'm a 24 year old female. Here's my situation in a nutshell. When I started college I was probably 120, gained about 10 lbs my first year, and then was down to 118 by my senior year. When that year hit, I wanted to look really good for my California spring break, and ate really well and worked out and was between 106 and 110 for the next year and half. I felt great, but people would always say the "oh you can eat anything" and "don't worry about the ice cream" sort of thing. Because of my new job and stress, I developed a compulsive overeating disorder and went to OA meetings for a few months. Things have been normal at times and then sometimes the bad eating hits. I have the mindset that if I mess up one meal, I throw in the towel for the rest of the day or even weekend and think I'll be OK and stay small. But the reality is I'm over 120 again, my clothes are tight, and it's a result of the disorder. I work out a lot and have been running road races too, but it's not helping: I think my body is used to working out.

Many people will tell me I'm at a healthy weight, which I know I sort of am, but for me I feel horrible the pounds are from my uncontrollable eating at times. As I said, I'm new here and didn't know where to post- I need to talk to people. I want to get back to where I was and I want people not to tell me not to worry or I'm crazy for this goal of 110 again. I'm a small girl in terms of height and bone structure, so I don't think it's nuts.

Where should I start here? I'd love to have a challenge or a buddy to check in with every day. Please please please someone understanding talk to me and give me advice.

[want2feelgood]

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