[AnaRecovery85]

Hey everyone, Im Lyndsay:) I'm new to this whole forum thing actually. I really never knew about forums until I saw a friend of mine in one and asked about it. He said that he has become really close with them, gets advice, talks about everything, not just what the forum talks about, and was really glad he found out about it and it has helped him out alot especially in the hobby that he is into. Im interested in fitness, health, nutrition, and am currently trying to lose weight. So, I thought, what the heck, I'm going to try to find a forum deal that I like:) So, here is a little bit about me:
My name is Lyndsay, I'm 21 years old, 22 in December! I'm 5'6, 155lbs, and would like to reach the goal of 120 to 125 lbs. I love to play sports, watch sports, be outdoors, be around friends, learn about nutrition and foods (sounds nerdy, I know), help people as much as I can, play pool, act like a dork, watch a movie from time to time, do not like TV, play on the computer, meet people, dance, and I text all the time lol. Im currently a full-time student at Ivy Tech in the Assoc. of Science Medical Assisting Program. I will graduate in May 09 with that degree and 4 national certifications!! I have a dog named Wrangler, my parents have the mother, Rejka, they are Vizslas. I am keeping a male from one of Wrangler's litters. I love animals:) Hmmm... I guess you are probably wondering what my Username is about?
I am a recovering anorexic. I have been at a healthy, almost too healthy now, weight for almost 2 1/2 years now. It started w/ bulimia for about 3months and escladed to full-blown anorexia for about 3.5 to 4 years:( My lowest weight being 80lbs. I never was in the hospital for my eating disorder, and I am not sure exactly how things started getting better, but I did know I was way too thin and became very depressed, lost a lot of friends, and worried, and lost faith from my father in me. I guess that is why I prolly changed things up and wanted to get better. I talked to my regular doctor a lot and he kept check on my levels through blood work constantly. I was also an excessive exerciser. We had a treadmill in the house, and I would do about 11 miles or a day on it at least running or walking, and for a year and I half I was playing soccer, conditioning and playing, had to quit when I started losing the ability to fight back:( Might resting heart rate was 38. Pretty Scary. Soccer was my love. But like I said, all of this is the past. I guess that is what brings me here.
Like I mentioned before, I am 155lbs now. I am disgusted to look in the mirror. I know I shouldnt think like this and everyone tells me that I look great. But, me, personally, I have a hard time dealing with it and I dont want to resort back to my anorexia days. I work out still... usually about 5 to 10 miles rollerblading a day or 3-5 miles a day run/walking... or sometimes both. I wouldnt say that I have a "horrible" diet, I mean I still havent ate fast food in atleast 6 years!! I generally try to stick w/ salads w/ grilled chicken, or sometype of seafood, and fruits. I occasionally have steak, or go on an unhealthy binge. I have probs w/ eating a lot at night. So, I guess what I am also trying to come across in this forum is some other people who have also had an eating disorder, and are recovering. Is it really that hard to lose weight again? Is there something wrong w/ me now? I just dont get it lol.

Well, There is a little bit, lol... ok a lot about me and my past and a couple of my goals weight, and life wise. I hope I didnt bore you too much. I cant wait to talk to you all, and if you have any questions, dont hesitate to ask, Im a very open, laidback individual, always here to lend an ear:) Thanks for reading!!