[velvethope]

Hi everyone..

I am aware my goal is not very high, but my situation is not very easy. I lost about 70 pounds when I was 15 (From 165 to 95). In the beginning I was dieting and exercising however after a while I became Anorexic. After 2 years of not eating (I would eat/drink once every 3/4 days and that would either be a little bit of fat free milk in coffee or one piece of bread) they had to put me in a hospital. Instead of treating my mental problem they just forced me to gain weight which ruined everything even more. I gained weight again and went back up to 140's. For some reason I couldn't even diet anymore- I guess I was just very tired. I lost all my self confidence.

Now FINALLY I have the energy to start again.. I just want to lose enough weight to become a self confident 19 year old. I am very scared of becoming anorexic again so I need support from everyone.
That path is one of the worst paths to choose and after a certain point, there is no going back.
My goal is 120, although I would very much like to go back to 110- however I know when I go down 115 I start looking scary. So I need help going down 120 and STOPPING there.

Please don't leave me alone.